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I'm alive!!! Also GOP debates

2015-08-08T02:25:12Z

More than 29 days have passed since I last updated my 29 Days of Star Trek Meme! That's one of the top "You Might Be A Chronic Procrastinator If..." signs.

However, I intend to finish that awesome meme and since I am far less busy now than I was for the last two months, I will also be posting more stuff. Most of it is fandom and fanfic-related, just like 99% of this journal, but my secret Tamarian genes insist that whenever shows/movies/books/comics I love fit real life events, I should communicate my feelings via references.

So, the GOP debates. I never watch debates this early in the race (the USA's insanely long campaign schedule is somewhere between pathetic, ridiculous, and infuriating), but I watched this one, for the Trump. And to paraphrase the Trump, everyone needs to be fired.

In this case, The SImpsons, as usual, always had it right when it came to the Republican Party:

(The Simpsons were usually not one-sided, though they never bothered to be equally balanced when the sides don't have equal merit. In this same episode, the Democratic Party banners read "WE HATE LIFE AND OURSELVES" and "WE CAN'T GOVERN.")

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29 Days of Star Trek Meme: Days 10 and 11 - What's your favorite/least favorite species?

2015-06-28T04:17:55Z

Finally returning to this great meme! I'll mush these two days together, because I have one answer for both: I don't have one. How could I choose a favorite or least favorite species? The question makes no sense to me. I think Cardassians were the best-written/best-thought-out species within the actual episodes, but that doesn't make them my favorites.

So I'll have to bow out with another wishy-washy ALL OF THEM. There are so many fascinating species in Star Trek, made all the more fascinating by how haphazardly they were slowly developed over the course of decades, gaining whole mythologies by static cling, bit by tiny bit. I love this sort of wordbuilding approximately ten times more than the most wonderfully thought-out pre-planned worldbuilding (sorry Tolkien, I love you too but...), because there is just nothing else like it.

Day 1 - Which Star Trek series is your favorite?
Day 2 - Who is your favorite character?
Day 3 - Who is your least favorite character?
Day 4 - What is the first episode/movie you watched?
Day 5 - What was the first Star Trek series you watched?
Day 6 - Your favorite canon pairing? (Canon being the series and the movies, including the reboot.)
Day 7 - Your Favorite non-canon pairing?
Day 8 - Your favorite actor/actress?
Day 9 - What's your favorite episode?
Day 12 - What's your favorite funny moment?
Day 13 - What's your favorite dramatic moment?
Day 14 - What's your favorite Star Trek quote?
Day 15 - How did you get into Star Trek?
Day 16 - Are you involved with Star Trek fandom?
Day 17 - Have you read any of the books? If so, which ones?
Day 18 - If you could be any species in the Star Trek universe, what would you be?
Day 19 - How did the Star Trek reboot affect you?
Day 20 - Of the minor characters (one shots, not the recurring ones) who’s your favorite?
Day 21 - Which Star Trek food would you want to try at least once?
Day 22 - Which Star Trek world would you want to visit at least once?
Day 23 - Is there anything you'd want to change about Star Trek? Why?
Day 24 - Is there anything about Star Trek that has disappointed you?
Day 25 - How has Star Trek changed you?
Day 26 - Lots of Star Trek Parodies out there. Which do you dig?
Day 27 - What would you cross over with Star Trek?
Day 28 - Your favorite friendship in Star Trek?
Day 29 - If you could tell Gene Roddenberry one thing, Star Trek related or not, what would it be?

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29 Days of Star Trek Meme: Day 9 - What's your favorite episode?

2015-06-18T02:00:19Z

I am getting behind on this, but oh well what the hell. Not the end of the world if I'm late.

I'll break it down by series:

TOS: City on the Edge of Forever. Yes, it's the one everyone picks. Super unoriginal choice. But it really is just that great. It's got everything. It's got a little bit of every single thing that makes Star Trek so wonderful.

TNG: Darmok. The perfect melding of great character-driven material and great sci-fi concept. A few months ago, I wrote a post saying my relationship with fiction and how I understand the universe through it sometimes makes me feel like I should have been born a Tamarian, because that language structure works for my soul, goddamn it.

DS9: Man, trying to pick a favorite out of the conventional contenders is impossible, so I'll pick In the Cards. Because it is a) howlingly hilarious in a very "The Zeppo"-of-Buffy-the-Vampire-Slayer way, and b) has one of my favorite things ever, the Christmas Truce trope -- bitter serious enemies deciding that, you know what? just for a moment, just for one little moment, lets fuck this war and fuck the fact that we all hate each other and fuck our mission to destroy each other and just take one, short, deep, pure breath of ~~baseball squee~~ fresh air.

Day 1 - Which Star Trek series is your favorite?
Day 2 - Who is your favorite character?
Day 3 - Who is your least favorite character?
Day 4 - What is the first episode/movie you watched?
Day 5 - What was the first Star Trek series you watched?
Day 6 - Your favorite canon pairing? (Canon being the series and the movies, including the reboot.)
Day 7 - Your Favorite non-canon pairing?
Day 8 - Your favorite actor/actress?
Day 10 - What's your favorite species? (Humans are a species as well.)
Day 11 - What's your least favorite species? (See question 9 about species.)
Day 12 - What's your favorite funny moment?
Day 13 - What's your favorite dramatic moment?
Day 14 - What's your favorite Star Trek quote?
Day 15 - How did you get into Star Trek?
Day 16 - Are you involved with Star Trek fandom?
Day 17 - Have you read any of the books? If so, which ones?
Day 18 - If you could be any species in the Star Trek universe, what would you be?
Day 19 - How did the Star Trek reboot affect you?
Day 20 - Of the minor characters (one shots, not the recurring ones) who’s your favorite?
Day 21 - Which Star Trek food would you want to try at least once?
Day 22 - Which Star Trek world would you want to visit at least once?
Day 23 - Is there anything you'd want to change about Star Trek? Why?
Day 24 - Is there anything about Star Trek that has disappointed you?
Day 25 - How has Star Trek changed you?
Day 26 - Lots of Star Trek Parodies out there. Which do you dig?
Day 27 - What would you cross over with Star Trek?
Day 28 - Your favorite friendship in Star Trek?
Day 29 - If you could tell Gene Roddenberry one thing, Star Trek related or not, what would it be?

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29 Days of Star Trek Meme: Day 8 - Your favorite actor/actress?

2015-06-14T18:36:23Z

Ha, is this some sort of trick question?

Patrick Stewart. Always Patrick Stewart.

In fact, let me post a few pictures to further elaborate my point:

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Stay classy:

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This is what he does every time someone screws up their lines (btw if you haven't watched the TNG bloopers you are horribly deprived)

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Or he screws up his lines:

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Here's the ice bucket challenge:

Patrick Stewart ALS challenge

He wears a fedora better than anyone:

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This is the only anti-smoking ad you need, really:
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There's other more substantial stuff for why he's awesome, but I am lazy and so I'll let other people cover that.

Day 1 - Which Star Trek series is your favorite?
Day 2 - Who is your favorite character?
Day 3 - Who is your least favorite character?
Day 4 - What is the first episode/movie you watched?
Day 5 - What was the first Star Trek series you watched?
Day 6 - Your favorite canon pairing? (Canon being the series and the movies, including the reboot.)
Day 7 - Your Favorite non-canon pairing?
Day 9 - What's your favorite episode?
Day 10 - What's your favorite species? (Humans are a species as well.)
Day 11 - What's your least favorite species? (See question 9 about species.)
Day 12 - What's your favorite funny moment?
Day 13 - What's your favorite dramatic moment?
Day 14 - What's your favorite Star Trek quote?
Day 15 - How did you get into Star Trek?
Day 16 - Are you involved with Star Trek fandom?
Day 17 - Have you read any of the books? If so, which ones?
Day 18 - If you could be any species in the Star Trek universe, what would you be?
Day 19 - How did the Star Trek reboot affect you?
Day 20 - Of the minor characters (one shots, not the recurring ones) who’s your favorite?
Day 21 - Which Star Trek food would you want to try at least once?
Day 22 - Which Star Trek world would you want to visit at least once?
Day 23 - Is there anything you'd want to change about Star Trek? Why?
Day 24 - Is there anything about Star Trek that has disappointed you?
Day 25 - How has Star Trek changed you?
Day 26 - Lots of Star Trek Parodies out there. Which do you dig?
Day 27 - What would you cross over with Star Trek?
Day 28 - Your favorite friendship in Star Trek?
Day 29 - If you could tell Gene Roddenberry one thing, Star Trek related or not, what would it be?

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29 Days of Star Trek Meme: Day 7 - Day 7 - Your favorite non-canon pairing?

2015-06-12T00:01:48Z

Okay, I'll break this one down by series.

TOS: Kirk/Spock. I wouldn't say I ship them, because to me personally, that term implies that I prefer them as a romantic couple rather than platonic friends, which I don't. I love them as platonic friends somewhat more than I love them as a romantic couple. However that's a bit like saying out of Ben & Jerry's ice cream flavors, I love Chocolate Fudge Brownie somewhat more than Chocolate Therapy. Also, ancient - I mean, uh, classic - Kirk/Spock fanfic was the first in-depth, emotionally-serious, explicit depiction of sex in fiction I had ever read (or watched), and I cannot overstate the (extremely, extremely positive) impact on shaping my understanding of how sex and sexual desire and romantic relationships could be a good thing rooted in good feelings rather than the weird, disingenuous, exasperating, romance-is-important-just-'cause-now-shut-up non sequiturs that I had seen so much of in Hollywood romance movies and YA novels.

TNG: I actually don't really have one. I suppose if Tasha lived, it might be Data/Tasha, but is that canon or non-canon? I almost ship Picard/Guinan, but in the end I know it's just something I like to occasionally think about, not read about or picture happening in the future. And I don't know if my thing for Picard/Q counts as a pairing. Mostly I think of it as one out of a never-ending list of ways that Picard fascinates Q and Q pisses Picard off (I will take all the non-sappy fanfic recs for this though. Hint hint.)

DS9: Bashir/Garak. Don't even have to pause for a millisecond to come up with that one. It is also one of a very, very small handful of non-canon pairings that I think could have actually, really, seriously, been canon without screwing up anything about the show or the characters if the showrunners hadn't been so skittish and "no homo!" I'm not certain a relationship between them would have worked out as something permanent, but I really think they could have had sex or a short-term doomed relationship or explicitly acknowledged romantic feelings and made it believable.

Day 1 - Which Star Trek series is your favorite?
Day 2 - Who is your favorite character?
Day 3 - Who is your least favorite character?
Day 4 - What is the first episode/movie you watched?
Day 5 - What was the first Star Trek series you watched?
Day 6 - Your favorite canon pairing? (Canon being the series and the movies, including the reboot.)
Day 8 - Your favorite actor/actress? (Not the same as character.)
Day 9 - What's your favorite episode?
Day 10 - What's your favorite species? (Humans are a species as well.)
Day 11 - What's your least favorite species? (See question 9 about species.)
Day 12 - What's your favorite funny moment?
Day 13 - What's your favorite dramatic moment?
Day 14 - What's your favorite Star Trek quote?
Day 15 - How did you get into Star Trek?
Day 16 - Are you involved with Star Trek fandom?
Day 17 - Have you read any of the books? If so, which ones?
Day 18 - If you could be any species in the Star Trek universe, what would you be?
Day 19 - How did the Star Trek reboot affect you?
Day 20 - Of the minor characters (one shots, not the recurring ones) who’s your favorite?
Day 21 - Which Star Trek food would you want to try at least once?
Day 22 - Which Star Trek world would you want to visit at least once?
Day 23 - Is there anything you'd want to change about Star Trek? Why?
Day 24 - Is there anything about Star Trek that has disappointed you?
Day 25 - How has Star Trek changed you?
Day 26 - Lots of Star Trek Parodies out there. Which do you dig?
Day 27 - What would you cross over with Star Trek?
Day 28 - Your favorite friendship in Star Trek?
Day 29 - If you could tell Gene Roddenberry one thing, Star Trek related or not, what would it be?

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29 Days of Star Trek Meme: Day 6 - Your favorite canon pairing?

2015-06-10T21:10:47Z

Favorite canon pairing?

Kirk/Enterprise.

Duh.

What else would it be? :)

As for any "this doesn't count as canon!" accusations, well selenak elaborates on this better than I ever could, but in short: the Enterprise is the object of Kirk's romantic energies. He has many emotionally serious affairs with women, yes. He has an intense and deep friendship with Spock, yes. But the Enterprise, for him, is not only 1) transcendence, consuming his identity and doing so in a way that gives his life purpose and meaning, but in addition, 2) he himself, as well as his colleagues, as well as the events of the universe (as in Elaan of Troyius), explicitly describe his relationship with his ship as a romance. The first one alone has nothing to do with romance per se. And the second one alone would be more of a joke than anything. But put the two together, and, well, as far as I'm concerned the only human/vehicle pairing more canon than this one is Doctor/TARDIS.

Day 1 - Which Star Trek series is your favorite?
Day 2 - Who is your favorite character?
Day 3 - Who is your least favorite character?
Day 4 - What is the first episode/movie you watched?
Day 5 - What was the first Star Trek series you watched?
Day 6 - Your favorite canon pairing? (Canon being the series and the movies, including the reboot.)
Day 7 - Your favorite non-canon pairing?
Day 8 - Your favorite actor/actress? (Not the same as character.)
Day 9 - What's your favorite episode?
Day 10 - What's your favorite species? (Humans are a species as well.)
Day 11 - What's your least favorite species? (See question 9 about species.)
Day 12 - What's your favorite funny moment?
Day 13 - What's your favorite dramatic moment?
Day 14 - What's your favorite Star Trek quote?
Day 15 - How did you get into Star Trek?
Day 16 - Are you involved with Star Trek fandom?
Day 17 - Have you read any of the books? If so, which ones?
Day 18 - If you could be any species in the Star Trek universe, what would you be?
Day 19 - How did the Star Trek reboot affect you?
Day 20 - Of the minor characters (one shots, not the recurring ones) who’s your favorite?
Day 21 - Which Star Trek food would you want to try at least once?
Day 22 - Which Star Trek world would you want to visit at least once?
Day 23 - Is there anything you'd want to change about Star Trek? Why?
Day 24 - Is there anything about Star Trek that has disappointed you?
Day 25 - How has Star Trek changed you?
Day 26 - Lots of Star Trek Parodies out there. Which do you dig?
Day 27 - What would you cross over with Star Trek?
Day 28 - Your favorite friendship in Star Trek?
Day 29 - If you could tell Gene Roddenberry one thing, Star Trek related or not, what would it be?

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29 Days of Star Trek Meme: Day 5 - What was the first Star Trek series you watched?

2015-06-10T20:54:03Z

Sorry this one is late!

TNG. I had watched it sporadically before, but I really got attached to it when I had just turned 14 and my family was in the middle of a temporary moving situation. We were staying at a hotel suite for one month, my sister and I had nothing to do while our parents did moving and househunting things all day, and during that one month I watched three hours of TNG every day (an insane amount of TV for us). Voila. A fandom was born.

Day 1 - Which Star Trek series is your favorite?
Day 2 - Who is your favorite character?
Day 3 - Who is your least favorite character?
Day 4 - What was the first episode/movie you watched?
Day 6 - Your favorite canon pairing? (Canon being the series and the movies, including the reboot.)
Day 7 - Your favorite non-canon pairing?
Day 8 - Your favorite actor/actress? (Not the same as character.)
Day 9 - What's your favorite episode?
Day 10 - What's your favorite species? (Humans are a species as well.)
Day 11 - What's your least favorite species? (See question 9 about species.)
Day 12 - What's your favorite funny moment?
Day 13 - What's your favorite dramatic moment?
Day 14 - What's your favorite Star Trek quote?
Day 15 - How did you get into Star Trek?
Day 16 - Are you involved with Star Trek fandom?
Day 17 - Have you read any of the books? If so, which ones?
Day 18 - If you could be any species in the Star Trek universe, what would you be?
Day 19 - How did the Star Trek reboot affect you?
Day 20 - Of the minor characters (one shots, not the recurring ones) who’s your favorite?
Day 21 - Which Star Trek food would you want to try at least once?
Day 22 - Which Star Trek world would you want to visit at least once?
Day 23 - Is there anything you'd want to change about Star Trek? Why?
Day 24 - Is there anything about Star Trek that has disappointed you?
Day 25 - How has Star Trek changed you?
Day 26 - Lots of Star Trek Parodies out there. Which do you dig?
Day 27 - What would you cross over with Star Trek?
Day 28 - Your favorite friendship in Star Trek?
Day 29 - If you could tell Gene Roddenberry one thing, Star Trek related or not, what would it be?

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29 Days of Star Trek Meme: Day 4 - What was the first episode/movie you watched?

2015-06-09T01:03:40Z

I can't remember my first experience of watching Star Trek. I'm sure it was TNG. I vividly remember scenes in the conference room, the darkness, the gleaming table, Geordi's VISOR, the stars streaming past the windows so beautifully and steadily, (and the fact that none of the characters even paid any attention to them, like those amazing stars were just a taken for granted everyday part of their lives.) And I remember being afraid of Worf, because the pattern of his forehead makeup made him look super-angry. But I have no memories that I can tie to any specific episode.

The first episode I can definitely remember watching was when I was eleven years old. It was TOS, A Private Little War. I thought aspects of that episode were really fascinating, like the whole Cold War plot with giving weapons to the alien race, and Spock's healing trance, but it was all firmly overshadowed by the ridiculousness of the guy in a big fluffy pastel sparkly unicorn-yeti suit with footie pajama feet. I thought that was the dumbest-looking thing I had ever seen. Hey, I was eleven, gimme a break!

Also, I remember being seriously, seriously disturbed by the concept of phasers that could vaporize your body and leave nothing behind, not even a charred crisp, as if you had never existed at all. That was just the creepiest thing ever for me.

Day 1 - Which Star Trek series is your favorite?
Day 2 - Who is your favorite character?
Day 3 - Who is your least favorite character?
Day 5 - What was the first Star Trek series you watched?
Day 6 - Your favorite canon pairing? (Canon being the series and the movies, including the reboot.)
Day 7 - Your favorite non-canon pairing?
Day 8 - Your favorite actor/actress? (Not the same as character.)
Day 9 - What's your favorite episode?
Day 10 - What's your favorite species? (Humans are a species as well.)
Day 11 - What's your least favorite species? (See question 9 about species.)
Day 12 - What's your favorite funny moment?
Day 13 - What's your favorite dramatic moment?
Day 14 - What's your favorite Star Trek quote?
Day 15 - How did you get into Star Trek?
Day 16 - Are you involved with Star Trek fandom?
Day 17 - Have you read any of the books? If so, which ones?
Day 18 - If you could be any species in the Star Trek universe, what would you be?
Day 19 - How did the Star Trek reboot affect you?
Day 20 - Of the minor characters (one shots, not the recurring ones) who’s your favorite?
Day 21 - Which Star Trek food would you want to try at least once?
Day 22 - Which Star Trek world would you want to visit at least once?
Day 23 - Is there anything you'd want to change about Star Trek? Why?
Day 24 - Is there anything about Star Trek that has disappointed you?
Day 25 - How has Star Trek changed you?
Day 26 - Lots of Star Trek Parodies out there. Which do you dig?
Day 27 - What would you cross over with Star Trek?
Day 28 - Your favorite friendship in Star Trek?
Day 29 - If you could tell Gene Roddenberry one thing, Star Trek related or not, what would it be?

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29 Days of Star Trek Meme: Day 3 - Who is your least favorite character?

2015-06-08T02:05:08Z

Again with the cop-out "I don't have one."

A few years ago I would have said Pulaski from TNG. Not because she was abrasive or anything like that, that aspect of her was actually quite refreshing, but because of her attitude towards Data (they were probably going for a McCoy vs Spock thing, which was never going to work because Data is the diametric opposite of Spock). Now, I didn't mind her attitude toward Data per se either, because it probably helped him grow and examine himself and learn to stand up for himself better (correct me if I'm wrong, but I think he's noticeably less down on himself in season 3 than in season 1 -- I'm pretty sure season 3!Data wouldn't have said it was all his fault the Enterprise got hijacked because he was *gasp* painting on his shore leave rather than manning his post 24/7, as he did in 11001001) but back then I was under the impression that Pulaski herself didn't develop in her views, since I hadn't seen enough of season 2 due to it being super-boring. Later I realized she did develop towards the end, and that retroactively made her likeable even earlier in the season. So nowadays I like Pulaski a lot.

So...yeah, I don't have any regular characters I dislike. I quite like the much-maligned characters like Wesley, Troi, Neelix, Ezri Dax, because when other fans start talking about how awful a character is, all it does is throw their good points and likeable traits into sharp relief for me and make me like them more, even if I didn't care much for them before. However, selenak listed some of the minor one-shot characters that were particularly crummy, so just to not be wishy-washy again, I'll pick Nero from Star Trek XI. So boring I can't remember a single line he said. I remember he was bald and had tattoos, which should make him automatically interesting because he wasn't wearing an '80s powersuit with Over 9000-level shoulder pads, but I still can't remember a single line he said.

Day 1 - Which Star Trek series is your favorite?
Day 2 - Who is your favorite character?
Day 4 - What was the first episode/movie you watched?
Day 5 - What was the first Star Trek series you watched?
Day 6 - Your favorite canon pairing? (Canon being the series and the movies, including the reboot.)
Day 7 - Your favorite non-canon pairing?
Day 8 - Your favorite actor/actress? (Not the same as character.)
Day 9 - What's your favorite episode?
Day 10 - What's your favorite species? (Humans are a species as well.)
Day 11 - What's your least favorite species? (See question 9 about species.)
Day 12 - What's your favorite funny moment?
Day 13 - What's your favorite dramatic moment?
Day 14 - What's your favorite Star Trek quote?
Day 15 - How did you get into Star Trek?
Day 16 - Are you involved with Star Trek fandom?
Day 17 - Have you read any of the books? If so, which ones?
Day 18 - If you could be any species in the Star Trek universe, what would you be?
Day 19 - How did the Star Trek reboot affect you?
Day 20 - Of the minor characters (one shots, not the recurring ones) who’s your favorite?
Day 21 - Which Star Trek food would you want to try at least once?
Day 22 - Which Star Trek world would you want to visit at least once?
Day 23 - Is there anything you'd want to change about Star Trek? Why?
Day 24 - Is there anything about Star Trek that has disappointed you?
Day 25 - How has Star Trek changed you?
Day 26 - Lots of Star Trek Parodies out there. Which do you dig?
Day 27 - What would you cross over with Star Trek?
Day 28 - Your favorite friendship in Star Trek?
Day 29 - If you could tell Gene Roddenberry one thing, Star Trek related or not, what would it be?

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29 Days of Star Trek Meme: Day 2 - Who is your favorite character?

2015-06-06T22:07:07Z

I don't have one.

Sorry if that's a cop-out answer, but I really, honestly, genuinely, cross-my-heart-and-hope-to-die could not pick a favorite character out of all of them. Not even one-from-each-series. I've always found the concept of favorite characters mostly baffling and incomprehensible, and that goes double for Star Trek, whose characters are so wildly different they can't be compared.

Day 1 - Which Star Trek series is your favorite?
Day 3 - Who is your least favorite character?
Day 4 - What was the first episode/movie you watched?
Day 5 - What was the first Star Trek series you watched?
Day 6 - Your favorite canon pairing? (Canon being the series and the movies, including the reboot.)
Day 7 - Your favorite non-canon pairing?
Day 8 - Your favorite actor/actress? (Not the same as character.)
Day 9 - What's your favorite episode?
Day 10 - What's your favorite species? (Humans are a species as well.)
Day 11 - What's your least favorite species? (See question 9 about species.)
Day 12 - What's your favorite funny moment?
Day 13 - What's your favorite dramatic moment?
Day 14 - What's your favorite Star Trek quote?
Day 15 - How did you get into Star Trek?
Day 16 - Are you involved with Star Trek fandom?
Day 17 - Have you read any of the books? If so, which ones?
Day 18 - If you could be any species in the Star Trek universe, what would you be?
Day 19 - How did the Star Trek reboot affect you?
Day 20 - Of the minor characters (one shots, not the recurring ones) who’s your favorite?
Day 21 - Which Star Trek food would you want to try at least once?
Day 22 - Which Star Trek world would you want to visit at least once?
Day 23 - Is there anything you'd want to change about Star Trek? Why?
Day 24 - Is there anything about Star Trek that has disappointed you?
Day 25 - How has Star Trek changed you?
Day 26 - Lots of Star Trek Parodies out there. Which do you dig?
Day 27 - What would you cross over with Star Trek?
Day 28 - Your favorite friendship in Star Trek?
Day 29 - If you could tell Gene Roddenberry one thing, Star Trek related or not, what would it be?

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29 Days of Star Trek Meme: Day 1

2015-06-05T20:39:24Z

Stolen from selenak , whose answer to the meme starts here.

Day 1 - Which Star Trek series is your favorite?

Hard to pick between TOS and TNG. I love them both more than DS9, and I do, in fact, think they are better than DS9, in a certain way. They are not better shows than DS9, but a better show has nothing to do with being a better thing. DS9 is a better show than TOS or TNG in terms of having less of the kinds of stuff that tends to make a show bad -- less ignored and flat and ill-used characters, less facepalmy and winceworthy material, less oversimplified black-and-white declarations, and less dated deviations from a number of narrow, ephemeral, value-neutral current-day storytelling features that people are impressed by in 2015. It is not, however, better than TOS or TNG in terms of the gross quantity of awesome that is contained within it, (though it does come very, very, very close.)

However, I love TOS and TNG in such completely different ways I can't really compare them. For example, I barely read any fanfic for TNG, and find a lot of the TNG fandom to be annoying or pointless. It's also not a show I enjoy critically. At all. My interest in analyzing TNG is so far below zero that my reaction to analysis of it makes my eyes glaze over and then I will eventually say "what is this shit you are talking about? Why would I care about it? Do you remember that time when the computer told Dr. Crusher that the universe was a spheroid region 705 meters in diameter?" I just love to absorb it and bask in it. My TNG love is for it as a show that I watched with my family completely oblivious to any hint of fandom when I was younger, and which introduced me to the concept of future-fantasizing in sci-fi. I can barely think of it as a show at all. It is more of a mental space.

TOS, on the other hand, I discovered completely on my own, watched on my own, and got into the fandom short after discovering it, and TOS was my introduction to fandom and fanfiction. My love for TOS, my experience of watching TOS, and my memories of TOS are completely entwined with the framework of fandom and fanfic, and my personal experiences of discovering fandom and fanfic, and the (highly enjoyable) exercise of mental dissonance and elaborate "authorial intent? what authorial intent?" explanations and cherry-picking what parts to train a microscope on and what parts to judiciously allow to fade out of focus (cough cough, sexism) that is involved in seriously delving into this show on a fandom analysis meta level. And, of course, the elaborate mockery that is irresistible to not indulge in when watching it. My approach to TOS is the diametric opposite of my approach to TNG -- it's entirely about sussing out deeper meanings and nuances and implications and theories and fanon and building it into a bigger and more detailed story than the show.

Apples and oranges, really.

Day 2 - Who is your favorite character?
Day 3 - Who is your least favorite character?
Day 4 - What was the first episode/movie you watched?
Day 5 - What was the first Star Trek series you watched?
Day 6 - Your favorite canon pairing? (Canon being the series and the movies, including the reboot.)
Day 7 - Your favorite non-canon pairing?
Day 8 - Your favorite actor/actress? (Not the same as character.)
Day 9 - What's your favorite episode?
Day 10 - What's your favorite species? (Humans are a species as well.)
Day 11 - What's your least favorite species? (See question 9 about species.)
Day 12 - What's your favorite funny moment?
Day 13 - What's your favorite dramatic moment?
Day 14 - What's your favorite Star Trek quote?
Day 15 - How did you get into Star Trek?
Day 16 - Are you involved with Star Trek fandom?
Day 17 - Have you read any of the books? If so, which ones?
Day 18 - If you could be any species in the Star Trek universe, what would you be?
Day 19 - How did the Star Trek reboot affect you?
Day 20 - Of the minor characters (one shots, not the recurring ones) who’s your favorite?
Day 21 - Which Star Trek food would you want to try at least once?
Day 22 - Which Star Trek world would you want to visit at least once?
Day 23 - Is there anything you'd want to change about Star Trek? Why?
Day 24 - Is there anything about Star Trek that has disappointed you?
Day 25 - How has Star Trek changed you?
Day 26 - Lots of Star Trek Parodies out there. Which do you dig?
Day 27 - What would you cross over with Star Trek?
Day 28 - Your favorite friendship in Star Trek?
Day 29 - If you could tell Gene Roddenberry one thing, Star Trek related or not, what would it be?

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Hello New People!

2015-06-03T00:57:22Z

jadelennox is hosting a dreamwidth friending meme here, and since there's a whole bunch of new people who've subscribed I thought I'd say hello. Hello! Details about me are on my profile.

My current state of fandomness is largely unchanged since winter. I am fangirling a whole lot of fandom history and fandom culture and fandom meta for early (or, to my early twenties self, "ancient" as one friend will never let me forget) fandoms, mainly Star Trek TOS, Starsky & Hutch, and Star Wars. I am firmly not getting excited for Star Wars Episode VII, since I always enjoy this kind of thing a million times better when I'm not anticipating it, but my massive Star Wars love has been steadily rising for the past few months.

Some comms I subscribe to and/or visit semi-frequently (I am also very busy with work and real life, so I have less time for this than I used to), and recommend for people wanting to participate in fandom more on dreamwidth, are:

For discussion: fandomsecrets , fail_fandomanon

For fandom events, challeges, etc: fandomcalendar , fandom_on_dw ,

For fanfic writing: onedeadplotbunny , fan_flashworks , fic_promptly

And also, if you're a gen fan looking for fic recs, I highly recommend gensplosion which recs not just gen fic but usually very unique and creative gen fic.

I subscribe to, but have mixed feelings about metanews . It's an awesome posting of recent fandom meta from around the internet, but the links contain a mixture of both eyerolling are-you-fucking-serious pretentious bullshit and omg-that's-really-cool awesomeness in roughly equal measures.

I am currently immersed in writing -- or more like grappling with -- four or five separate fanfics. Why four or five instead of one? Because I'm a fucking idiot, that's why.

A wonderful fandom friend also graciously lent me a stack of ~~ancient~~ sorry, I mean, "older" Star Trek TOS zines from the '70s-'90s and I have been going over them with great glee and will probably post some reflections about them in my journal soon.

I keep telling myself I will post more fanfic recommendations, but I keep forgetting. I am taking this opportunity to remind myself to get on with it.

eta: I also just discovered the Anonymous Writing Feedback Meme anonconcrit , courtesy of moetushie !

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Star Wars and the smallness of The Empire Strikes Back

2015-05-31T02:02:17Z

A great, bubbly, and very enjoyable read about why Empire was the best Star Wars movie:

The Empire Strikes Back is faster and more intense—but only because it’s smaller and more personal.

It also made me laugh because I'm pretty damn sure the fanfic-and-meta-and-fanart cohort of fans* (as opposed to the ~~male~~ uh, I mean, the what-is-Darth-Vader's-suit-made-of-and-is-it-fireproof-fans) noticed this and went to town on it ages ago. How come critics are always late to the blindingly obvious party?

*(Is there an official term to distinguish these fans from the dudes (yeah yeah and girls) whose fandom consists of only collecting Star Wars merchandise and playing Star Wars cards and that kind of stuff?)

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Meme: Ten Fics That Stayed With You

2015-05-26T02:10:18Z

In a new post, list ten FICS that have stayed with you in some way. Don’t take but a few minutes, and don’t think too hard — they don’t have to be the “right” works, or even all the same pairing or fandom, just the fics that have touched you or that stuck with you somehow.

I swiped this from moetushie , whose answer to the meme is here, way back in March, started it, forgot about it, rediscovered it a week or so ago, and finished it. It's rambly unfiltered musing and I have made a conscious effort to excise as much critical thinking and journalistic argumentation out of it as I can, and just write down what these fics are in my head and the imprint they left in my memory, rather than what they may be in reality.

Well, I spent much more than a few minutes on these. And they all got so long that I had to put cuts in all the "What Stuck with me and Why" bits so people's eyes don't glaze over while scrolling over it. Though I DID jot the list of fics down pretty fast, though, because if I didn't it would be impossible to choose just ten. So if anyone swipes this from me, moetushie's approach to the meme is probably closer to what it's meant to look like. ;)

As the description implies, these are not recs. Not in the sense of "read this, this is so good!" They're personal why-this-fic-stuck-with-me musings. However, in my opinion, they all do qualify at least as this-was-a-pretty-interesting-story recs.

I do recognize that a couple of them would not affect me the same way if I first read them today instead of reading them when I did read them, so any overpraising belongs to the fic's personal impact, not my critical analysis. But here goes:

1. Prison Of Glass by LuipaardJack (Futurama, Fry-centric)

Summary: "Before you contradict an old man, my fair friend, you should endeavor to understand him." - George Santayana

Context: Read when I was 16, deeply embroiled in Futurama and other cartoon fanfic.

What Stuck With Me and Why: There is a concept that Futurama embodies so well I and a couple people I know call it "Futurama Dissonance" -- the brain-breaking effect that happens when a show is built from a surreal cubist mash-up between good solid satirical self-aware Simpsons-esque humor with a porous fourth wall, and utterly soul-crushing deadly serious tragedy, psychological horror, or pathos. Futurama was always good at kicking the viewer in the balls without staying bogged down in the serious bits long enough to feel incongruous or ridiculous, and explored on a number of different fronts -- the relationship between Fry and Leela, the sci-fi concepts (e.g., The Sting and Godfellas), and, most of all, the premise of Fry being accidentally cryogenically frozen and then reawakened 1,000 years later. This last one is pretty much a pandora's box of implications that get more depressing and complicated the longer you think about them. Futurama explored it in canon just enough to keep it in the forefront of the viewers' minds, but not fully. That was left to fanfic, such as this one.

I have read quite a few really good and in-character studies of Fry and the fact that he is, in fact, over one thousand years old, and everything he knew is gone, and there is absolutely no one like him anywhere. However, this fic stands out in my memory for some reason. Probably because it has no "process" -- no resolution or conclusion that makes sense of things. His circumstances just exist, and he's in them now. Quiet, following random thoughts and observations. It tracks the premise of the show without cover ups for the liberties of sci-fi concepts. Short and not overdone or over-clever, just pure truth. The parallel to Sleeping Beauty really stayed with me.

2. Sick Home by Lance Ruhiru (South Park, Scott Tenormen-centric)

Summary: When time makes it worse. (Scott Tenormen's thoughts about Cartman, South Park, and the nature of reality and fiction, years after Scott Tenormen Must Die).

Context: Written years before 200 and 201 aired, so retroactively AU yet eerily prophetic. Read when I was 15 in my several months-long nothing-but-South-Park craze, during which I inhaled almost the entire ff.net archive.

What Stuck With Me and Why: I was lucky enough to be exposed early on to the best of the best when it comes to dark "but what happened to...?" fanfics for thoroughly unrealistic and unserious shows like South Park. This one takes the unseen aftermath of Cartman's murder by proxy of Scott Tenormen's parents and runs with it -- but not in the obvious, tiresome "look, this is what would really happen!" direction. No, it runs in an entirely different direction, the opposite direction most fanfic runs -- towards us, right through the fourth wall instead of deeper into the show's internal universe. This fic's exploration of the nature of reality, of the idea of fictional worlds, with fictional laws of nature and physics and time and space, of sliding timelines, the orphaned quality of fictional events and the way they intersect with real life, the melding of reality and fiction, outstrips anything I've seen professionally published, and does so in only a few paragraphs.

3. Nothing Compares by Cszemis (South Park, gen, Stan & Kyle, Kyle & Cartman, death-fic)

Summary: "His fingers traced over the shadow of Stan. “When we are dead and gone nobody will care about these pictures. No one will remember how happy we were. How much it all meant.” How much he meant to me…"

Context: Continuing the dark fics for goofy shows trend. Read when I was 15, yada yada see above.

What Stuck With Me and Why: The author was clearly horribly depressed back in 2007 when she wrote this and some of her other fic, though I believe she is doing much better now. The fic stuck with me because of the sincerity and unflinching ballsiness combined with a teenage-to-the-bone author perspective, which nonetheless is not a flaw. This story is part of the reason I don't feel that "teenager-y" suffices as a writing flaw, for the writing and perspective on life here is utterly teenager-y, but that does not mean the story is invalid. Honestly, I've graduated from being a teenager quite a few years ago, but I've really had it up to here with people thinking that something that's written in a "teenager-y" way basically means "wrong, wrong about everything, disposably wrong, amusingly wrong, wrong to the point of having no validity, so wrong its perspective is of value to no one but parents and therapists, so wrong it has no right to exist and can have no benefit to any reader in the whole world, ever"...but I digress. No wait, actually, I don't digress. That's actually the whole point of why this story stuck with me. Teenage existential frozen misery personified, and I don't mean that in a smirking, patronizing way. I mean that in a 100% serious way. The characters' actions may be South Park-surreal but the feelings and impulses and thoughts are as teenager-ly real as real can get. The sort of real that is more emotionally real than realistic depictions would be, if you know what I mean. Screaming, bottomless rage and grief; intense, fierce love that makes a best friend a kid's whole world; desperate pain with no social mores or perspective; a bleak and crushing (not tragic, not cathartic, not bittersweet) ending.

Also, another thing that stuck with me about this fic is the prologue. It begins with an unsophisticated but intelligent philosophical musing on the nature of soulmates. It now reads as rather clunky to me, but back then, it was really reassuring, as back then I was starting to get really bewildered by why media and language equated love and romance as if they were synonymous rather than a set and a subset. As weird as it is for me to think about it now, that silly little prologue was one of the most memorable things that helped verbalize my understanding of relationships, keep these feelings from slipping out of my brain under the weight of deaf, matter-of-fact silence, without getting hijacked by the Romantic-Doublethink Industrial Complex that is mainstream media and ship-dominated fandom. I still remember every single scene.

4. Mystery Kirk/Spock Slash Story of Awesomesauce by Mystery Kirk/Spock Slash Writer of Awesomesauce (Star Trek: TOS, Kirk/Spock)

Summary: I don't know and can't remember and cannot (and will not) find it again. If anyone recognizes this fic, don't tell me or link me or I will hunt you down for wrecking my childhood memories.

Context: I was 15 years old, and TOS was one of my very first and primary fandoms. I had read some smut, in the form of triofic in Harry Potter, but not much slash except some lame OOC stuff that belonged in a teen drama. I was also at that point in sexual development where encyclopedia descriptions of sexual acts were wildly titillating to me. From what I recall of the writing style and attitude, I am pretty sure this story was written in the '70s or '80s.

What Stuck With Me and Why: My loathing of Romantic-Doublethink does not in any way mean I loathe actual individual romance fanfics, and explicit friend-slash is my favorite type of romantic fic by a good margin. Not quite at the level of my top favorite type of fic -- pre-established gen friendship -- but pretty high up there. Captain Kirk was a major sexual awakening of mine. Not my first sexual awakening of "guys are hot, guys can touch me, that sounds oddly pleasing," but my far more important "girls can gaze at guys and know them as sex, pure sex, absolute sex, the same way guys gaze at girls." I realized this mostly through Kirk/Spock fic, where Spock's point of view of this impossibly enticing human being that caused feelings he couldn't control or understand in a context that was compatible with his socialized identity was very, very relatable to my own teenage feelings about guys. And about Kirk, of course.

This fic was also the first explicit K/S fic that made any sort of impression on me. Probably at least partly as a result of my 21st century, ex-hippie, ex-Californian Big-D Democrat New England family, my reaction to discovering the existence of the concept of slash was simply something like "oh, this is a thing, huh?" At least that's what I think it was, because my reaction was so low-key I don't even really remember it. Since I had little to no resistance to it even in the beginning, slash never gave me that opportunity for revelation that I've heard other slash fans recount experiencing -- the process of recoiling from something they'd been conditioned to think of as not-kosher only to have their mind broadened and their preconceptions altered by the realization that actually, it was totally awesome. The extent of the negative opinions about homosexuality my parents allowed me to hold was pretty much limited to a brief period of "wait, ew, they stick their dicks in where?" However, the experience of actually reading believable, in-character, well-written slash was totally mind-blowing for me on an entirely different level -- one that had little to do with homosexuality and everything to do with the female gaze and male sexual desirability and the subversions of expectations of how romantic relationships are supposed to look. Somehow, it had never really occurred to me that men could be looked at, that certain characterizations, dynamics, or sequences of events pertaining to sex and romance could transpire differently than they did in Hollywood or in high school, or that the visible part of a character could be one thing onscreen and a completely different thing in a fanfic without the character breaking in half.

The best thing about this fic is that I barely remember anything concrete, mostly just the leftover flashes of imagery and the echos of my own reactions, memories of the impressions it made, not the actual story itself. Kirk and Spock were out for a long, hushed, night on the town on shore leave, and Kirk slowly, softly seduces Spock, one aching, crackling, simmering, teasing, tripwire-taut, can't-even-relax-enough-to-draw-breath sexually-charged scene after another, then sex that I can't remember because my nervous system was so overloaded, and what I perfectly remember is my brain melting out of my 15-year-old ears as it grasped the idea of men-as-sex all at once, like a fuse being blown. I remember Spock burning, quietly Spocklike and without exclamation points, verbal or mental. I remember alien women, alien sights, quiet alien restaurants, and a looming alien sky. I remember them slowly walking through the streets, lights glowing through the post-midnight muted surrealism. I remember the shaded yellow light and glossy black windows of a hotel room, somehow always unmistakable no matter what the planet. I remember Spock looking at Kirk's twinkling hazel eyes and thick curly chestnut pubic hair. I would not re-read this fic even if I could, for I want to preserve that memory.

5. No Means No by idioticonion (How I Met Your Mother, Barney/Robin, domestic violence, dub-con, rape(?))

Summary: "Barney is accused of raping Robin. This a single, fractured story told in one hundred drabbles going back and forwards in time. Spoilers up to The Goat. Written for the HIMYM DarkFic Livejournal Comm. Warning: Very dark."

Context: In 2011, How I Met Your Mother single-handedly dragged me out of the worst summer of my entire life, the only time in my life I can remember being depressed for longer than a few days. I leapt into the fandom in gratitude, which was a bad idea because it jilted me horribly a few months later (season 7, what a nightmare). However, unlike 99% of sitcoms, HIMYM has a fantastic fandom. This is partly because of its extensive and detailed continuity, and partly because of one writer, idioticonion, who wrote around 200 HIMYM fics, many of them extremely dark, ranging from ludicrous ~edginess~ to genuinely chilling what-ifs. This fic, while technically OOC, is mostly towards the latter.

What Stuck With Me and Why: Sitcoms can be too absurdist for that thing that fanfic usually relies on -- divorcing the sequence of events from the narrative framework, so that the timeline of events are not parceled out by episode in the canon-compliant fanfic timeline. It is much harder to write fic even for realistic sitcoms than it is to write fic for the most ridiculous and unrealistic dramas, because sitcoms are unreal -- their very narrative structure makes them near-incompatible with an internal reality with human beings with logical inner thoughts. However, HIMYM's canon framing device of Future Ted's story filters "what actually happened" through his retelling. Fanfic for HIMYM is almost always fanfic of "what actually happened," not fanfic of "Ted's story." Since the only thing we see onscreen is "Ted's story," each fan's opinion of "what actually happened" is very flexible and open to interpretation. Now, Barney is definitely one of those characters who undergoes a terrifying transformation the moment you divorce him from his sitcom context -- but this story actually subverts that rather tediously obvious route.

This story has two unique and memorable aspects to it. The first is an extremely dark interpretation and resulting divergent AU of Barney and Robin's relationship in season 3. It goes there, and then instead of fluttering away after fucking things up like most darkfics, it stays there to the end of the line, until it has totally destroyed the in-universe characters and group and totally made everything into a permanent, unfixable mess and then let the characters contemplate it. The second is that it is an impressive structural tour-de-force, as a drabble story told in anachronic -- but meaningfully arranged -- order, so there's no line where you go "nope, too far" and backbutton -- it's all jumping back and forth all the time so you're sort of hooked for the long haul. Like most darkfic for sitcoms, it's kind of ludicrous, to be honest, if you are in too objective a frame of mind when you read it. But if you read it as I did -- all in one sitting, and fast, and late at night -- it's skin-crawling. Doesn't matter what your opinions of the show are (or for that matter, whether you even watch the show at all). It's unforgettable.

6. The Snow Queen by elspethdixon (Marvel/Captain America Comicsverse, Steve/Tony, fairy tale fusion)

Summary: A fairy-tale fusion between The Snow Queen by Hans Christian Andersen, and the characters of the Marvel 616 comics universe (i.e., putting the Marvel characters and ideas into the roles of the fairy tale's plot), with Steve Rogers (named the Soldier) in the part of Gerda, and Tony Stark (named the Smith) in the part of Kay.

Context: I read this in 2010 during my great Marvel and DC comics craze. Even more specifically, during my rabid comicsverse!Steve/Tony shipping craze, which kind of went dormant shortly prior to the release of The Avengers, (and thank god it did because movieverse!Steve/Tony has not a single shred of commonality with comicsverse!Steve/Tony, and being an active comicsverse shipper during the MCU explosion would have made me tear my hair out.) There are innumerable non-canon pairings (especially slash pairings) that I like and enjoy reading, but there are very few pairings I like as much as (let alone more than) the platonic friendship interpretation present in the canon source. And there are even fewer that I actively ship. Comicsverse!Steve/Tony is one of those few.

What Stuck With Me and Why: This fic starts out simply as a beautifully-written fairy-tale fusion, complete with a stunningly and deliciously authentic control over the language, so that it does not contain any words, phrases, passages, dialogue exchanges, or actions that are written in a distinctly modern language. There are no elements that are obviously from another source, and certainly not Marvel-specific. No names are given, no anachronisms that cannot be contained within the bounds of fairy-tale-typical anachronism are committed, and nor is there any hint of that putrid type of self-awareness and post-modernism that writers are forever tacking onto their stories as if embarrassed to write things with a straight face as if their characters are real characters instead of parodies. It really sounds almost exactly like an original fairy tale written during Andersen's time. At the same time, no one with a fairly strong familiarity with the Marvel comics universe and knowledge of the history of Captain America will fail to notice the Marvel elements seamlessly woven into it.

But then! Soon after the Soldier starts out on his Gerda-esque quest in search of the Smith, the fic does a spectacular level-up. One, after another, after another, other Marvel characters drawn from the Avengers and Captain America pop into the fic as naturally as the original characters from Andersen's original Snow Queen popped into that story, aided a great deal by the conveniently symbolic superhero names for these characters -- go on, just guess what form the fairy-tale equivalents of Jan Van Dyke, Peter Parker, or Steve Wilson take. Take a wild guess :D And then, without compromising the story's perfect, serious, airtight fairy-tale language and storytelling mentioned in the paragraph above, the entire fic degenerates -- I mean that in the best way possible -- into a string of the most delightfully creative and just plain fun symbolism-loaded shibboleths that the wildest dreams of the nerdiest fan could ever imagine. And all throughout, its core is held steady by the perfectly in-character (even in a totally un-canon-like situation) portrayal of Cap and Tony's bond.

However, I should probably put a warning: for anyone who decides to take this as a rec and clicks on it expecting slashy awesomeness as a resolution, you might be disappointed. While there is nothing missing from the intensity and beauty and romanticism of the fairy tale versions of Steve and Tony's relationship, and I know full well that elspethdixon is the queen of Steve/Tony and definitely intended it to be slash, I have read this story three times over and, even though I am a massive "they should be totally canon!" shipper of these two, I still cannot detect a single whiff of slash or pre-slash anywhere in the story. But to be quite honest, it doesn't make a damn difference here. It's that well-written.

7. Just a Face on a Train by katheryne (Spider-Man movies (Tobey Maguire), Peter Parker, OFC, gen)

Summary: "After rescuing a train from Doc Ock's attack, Peter Parker found himself unmasked and indebted to those he had just saved. 4 months later, a train passenger again crosses paths with the young hero. Based on events from Spider-Man 2."

Context: I don't really remember when I read this or why, or how I found it, since I was never in this fandom (though I loved the Tobey Maguire Spider-Man movies). It was a couple years ago, though, and I am glad I did.

What Stuck With Me and Why: The strange thing about this fic is that I still can't figure out why it stuck with me so vividly. The plot is simple: one of the people on the train who saw Peter's face in Spider-Man 2 was a waitress at a New York City diner, a young mother scraping to make ends meet. And one day, Peter Parker comes into the diner to sit and study like any other college student, she recognizes him, and in a desire to thank him for saving her and the city without embarrassing him by telling him she knows who he is, tricks him into coming into the diner to eat almost for free every day. The fic is really just character study, with the original character's POV of Peter at the forefront.

I think its memorability has something to do with the authenticity of the writing that makes it so memorable and satisfying for me. The waitress character has her own life going on, subtly showing the importance and impact a superhero has on other people, how civilians in a superhero universe have purpose and a stake in staying alive that goes far beyond being props to be used by the hero in showing his heroism and competing with the villain for victory. There is no driving plot or adventure anywhere at hand. Peter's reactions to her are simply the reactions he would have to any dime-a-dozen friendly waitress who he gained a passing familiarity with. Her interactions with Peter are natural and beyond the first meeting have no unlikely coincidences -- she is not special, or unique, and does not have any special connection to Peter in any way. She's just random person #2523, and that is what makes this story great. Most of all, it just exudes honesty and maturity, the mark of a writer who thinks thoroughly exploring this premise is by far fascinating and rich enough for a story's worth of material, and need not jazz it up with anything more.

8. Who's Afraid of the GI Bogeyman? by Curley Green (M*A*S*H, gen ensemble)

Summary: "Naïveté has its advantages. Radar is afraid of the dark, but it's the rest of the 4077th who truly have uncontrollable fears. A series of short vignettes, c. season 7. One-shot."

Context: M*A*S*H was one of my first fandoms, and the first really in-depth one. I read this fic when I was 14, in 2006. If I recall correctly, my fic-reading method in M*A*S*H fandom was mainly to filter the entire ff.net archive by a character combo or genre -- in this case, horror -- and read everything listed there that pricked my ears up.

What Stuck With Me and Why: This fic is one of those fics that really illuminate the special quality of ensemble shows. Probably most people have read this type of fic before -- made up of a number of character studies in which each character is given a paragraph or few to be explored according to a common denominator or overarching theme. These fics, when done right, tend to look kind of like what would happen if you aligned a collection of many wildly differently types of fruit along the edge of a paper slicer and sliced exactly half an inch off all their tops at the same time, and then checked their exposed cross-sections to see how they differ and how they are similar. M*A*S*H did this in canon -- with the episode "Dreams" among others, which showed what the members of the M*A*S*H crew dreamed about during one specific bad day (on one end of the spectrum, you have Hawkeye amputating his own arms and then being given a scalpel to operate on a wounded child, on the other end, you have Potter playing polo with grenades that turn into fireworks while his wife calls him home for dinner).

High-concept character studies like this in canon are no doubt partly responsible for the same phenomena cropping up very often in M*A*S*H fanfic. This fic was not one of the best one of these kinds of fics I've read, but it's one of the first. Possibly THE first. What I do know if that every single one of the studies in this fic stuck in my head with perfect clarity even years after I first read it. Upon re-reading they seem extremely simple and not all that insightful compared to a number of other fics with this type of model, but Charles' portion is still one of the most haunting and compelling sketches of his character I've ever read. And the bookends that tie it together -- the contrast with Radar -- gives it a whole other layer. It gives the 4077 -- the idea/experience, not the place -- a shape, that kinds of looks like an invisible spider's web every character but Radar is trapped in and connected by but can't see except at this one angle, so the fic is more than the sum of its parts. Also, Father Mulcahy's portion was apparently too long and involved to be included with the rest of the fic, so there's a companion piece for him: Are You There God? It's Me, Francis.

9. World In Your Eyes by jamjar (DC Comics/Superman comics, gen with background Clark Kent/Lois Lane)

Summary: "The first time Clark had looked at the world from above, he almost thought he was dying."

Context: I read this maybe in 2013, a year or two after my Marvel and DC Comics superhero binge which was abruptly killed stone cold dead by the Nu 52 over in DC. I never lost my love for superhero comics, though, nor superhero fanfic, as in evidence here. Superman is and always has been my favorite superhero of all time, even if he wasn't one of the ones I was most interested in reading about.

What Stuck With Me and Why: If I wanted to give myself a pain in the ass trying to articulate something this important and special and close to my heart, I would write an essay of my own explaining the sheer wonderfulness of Superman/Clark Kent's personality and spend about a week perfecting it and wind up disappointed because it wasn't right. So instead, I shall quote a comment mekkio once made about Superman instead:

See, I've always thought Batman was cooler and Wonder Woman was more bad ass but Superman had a special place in my heart because of Clark Kent. Yes, he was born on a different planet but he was raised in Middle America to a loving, honest couple. And Clark reflected on that. Clark was just a down to earth (excuse the pun), good guy. Superman has always the struck me as the type of superhero who would move your stalling truck off of the train tracks and then fix the truck because as a farm boy, he has been fixing farm equipment most of his life. He's the one superhero you can go to and say, "My cat is stuck up a tree. Can you get him?" without feeling foolish that you are asking this person with god-like powers to do something so mundane. Like he wouldn't make you feel foolish for asking. He'd just go and do it because, hey, the cat is stuck up the tree and it's probably scared and you are worried and I can do it, so, let me do it. As all powerful as he is, he would stop to help a little old lady cross the street. He is just a good, good, salt of the earth guy.

The question I like the most is why and how he got this way, how this personality melds with all the various aspects of his identity. The fact that mekkio's description above is his personality means something in relation to his life circumstances, there is an angle that you can look at him from, and see how this personality fits into and resonates with the context of being an alien and having a huge raft of superpowers and being a superhero and having a secret identity and belonging to a superhero team and being married to a normal human woman and all that jazz. This fic's "argument," if it could be said to have an argument, is that there's actually no contradiction or tension in simultaneously having powers like that and a personality like that. It's that, if he is capable of seeing the world in the way the fic shows, why in the world would he possibly feel or want to act any differently? It is a very short fic, but it is indescribably beautiful.

10. The Thousandth Man by Suzan Lovett (Starsky & Hutch, gen, post-Starsky vs Hutch)

Summary: This was written before the days of summary boxes, so in brief: the ending tag was nothing but a performance, Hutch offers no explanation of his actions nor any attempt to fix things, Starsky kicks him to the curb in a fury, and the two of them spend the next several weeks estranged until the plot finally puts them face-to-face once again.

Context: Every S&H fan and their dog has written a post-"Starsky vs Hutch" Fix-It Fic. The Fix-It Fic is that panfandom fic genre designed to explain and resolve baffling and outrageous canon events -- in this case, it's Hutch sleeping with Starsky's girlfriend, an act whose seriousness has zilch to do with conflict, and everything to do with a betrayal of trust, the cornerstone of their friendship, and the absence of either motive or onscreen reconciliation. The Thousandth Man is much longer and more complicated than most fix-its. It's one of the earlier ones too, written in 1985. I read this during a kick I'm sure some other S&H fans have had -- consuming every post-SvH fic I could lay my hands on and marveling at the S&H fandom's unparalleled reality-weaving powers as it collectively constructed, out of the resonating patterns of the common denominators of a hundred wildly varying fanfics and observations, a shadow-arc for season 4 that the canon never quite articulated. Out of all those innumerable fix-it fics, no one single story ever satisfied me like this one.

What Stuck With Me and Why: I may be going out on a limb here, but I don't think I'm wrong to say that a lot of fans have experienced that strange fandom phenomenon of nursing a deeply personal, private, long-lived longing -- different from a kink or a fleeting obsession -- to read a specific story premise that they have fully- or partially-formed in their minds before they ever find a story that satisfied it. Some will (consciously or unconsciously) peruse various canons, fandoms, and fanfics one after the other seeking catharsis, looking for those little puzzle pieces missing from their trove of personal formative stories and myths. Some readers know exactly what they're looking for and just can't find it, others never knew they were missing it before it fell into their lap. But there is always that memorable "aha!" moment when it is finally read.

One of my longings was a preoccupation with the premise of a betrayal or other deeply hurtful act between two great friends. Another was a personal need, from my formative childhood experiences, to see a great friendship -- with no confounding variables or goalpost-moving of romantic explanations or life-and-death/hurt-comfort scenarios -- as the center of a story's universe. Explored and acknowledged and discussed at length, as if this friendship in and of itself was worthy of eternal fascination; painted with all the weight, intensity, passion, brutality, sweetness, roughness, psychic exhaustion, honesty, labor, sacrifice, and socially unexpected emotions it deserves. A tale that did not stop spinning out its natural course to skip the bits about how the dark side of loyalty is to be dragged into the gutter when one friend falls, that the dark side of trust and intimacy is to have no protection if one friend ever turns his claws on the other, that the dark side of halving all burdens and sharing all troubles is forcing burdens and troubles on another even when you don't intend to.

To say The Thousandth Man was all this and more to me, is to say too little. It stuck with me because it was, for me, (on a completely personal note), distilled emotional validation. A friendship's simple existence can be a story's only stakes -- the thing that is threatened, lost, regained, without a single sidestepping concession to the arbitrary horseshit about how certain types of relationships are allowed to be written. The outside context and plot is inseparable from the friendship, but the entire shape of the story is of the friendship. The thrill of Hutch's decency and his caring for his friend emerging from beneath his burnout and apathy and callousness to overcome his temptation to piss his life away; the rawness of Starsky raging and cursing at Hutch that he's sick of carrying you around, like a hole blasted in my gut, as anyone who has been jerked around in circles due to their loyalty to someone who seems to give them nothing but grief can relate to; the tenderness of their tired, sweet, long night of hashing things out, the bravery of Hutch's honesty and humility and Starsky's generosity and guilelessness as they go down to the wire -- so jealousy-inducing as friends that I was tempted to scribble down quotes from the story's third part in a notebook, and keep them for future reference in my real life.

Like the M*A*S*H story above, the story's shape, and the shape it retroactively gives to the show as a whole, more than the sum of its content, is a tangible, visible thing. But to say more would be too much like a review than a personal reaction. So I'll just mention: the summit of this story's personal impact on me is the effect of a single pivotal moment late in the third and final part near the climax. As the friendship teeters on the brink of permanent dissolution, Starsky remembers, in a lightning-flash of revelation, a half-forgotten tucked-away newspaper cartoon, displayed in the story without a single comment or word of explanation, a self-evident melding of narrative and external object. I have been reading stories since I was five years old, and no moment in any story I have ever read in my life lit up my spine with a blinding flood of electricity the way that moment did.

Now I'm thinking up all the other fics that stayed with me but which didn't make the cut of the first ten such fics to cross my mind. Perhaps I'll do this meme again in a few months...

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As the Good Book says, if you spit in the air, it lands in your face

2015-05-16T06:06:17Z

The short nutzoid crackfic I was just writing about the nonsensical and hilariously terrible Star Trek: TOS episode "Spock's Brain" just somehow turned into an emotional serious symbolic Spock-McCoy friendship study. What.

On a mostly unrelated note, it just occurred to me, 10 years after first seeing either work, that the main association my brain makes when I see/read/think about Spock and McCoy's relationship is Golde from Fiddler on the Roof fuming, regarding her husband Tevye, "You can die from such a man!!"

/it is very 2:00am around here.

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An assortment of random things I nabbed out of my bookmarks folder in the past 5 minutes

2015-05-05T07:28:49Z

Old snark is still the best snark:

Original Post: (American southerner ranting at length on tumblr about how American northerners don't understand how to make sweet tea)

Commenter 1: I'm British, and even I think this motherfucker needs to calm the fuck down about their tea.

Commenter 2: As an American, maybe you didn't learn from the first time you guys told us to calm down about our tea.

A full list (well, a list that was full three years ago) of every side effect of the products of Prescott Pharmaceuticals on The Colbert Report

The Cast of Avatar: The Last Airbender discovers shipping:

The purpose of the Oxford Comma:

Deadpool as interpreted by Norman Rockwell:

An explanation of how to pronounce "pecan" in various parts of the United States:

A handy guide to the A-plot of every episode of House ever:

This Safe Driving PSA, which might be the best thing I have watched all month:

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May the Fourth Be With You

2015-05-05T02:28:40Z

To all fellow Star Wars fans -- admit it. Out of all the fandoms in all the franchises in all the world, we got it really, really, REALLY good. Seriously. How many other fandoms have the kind of luck and respect and responsiveness and widespread acceptance, on every possible level from the quality of fic to the lack of stigma from non-fans, that this one has? None of them, that's how many. No fandom is as lucky as this one.

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The Art of Crackfandomitude

2015-04-21T04:21:45Z

Have you ever dabbled in a fandom for a show/movie/book you weren't fannish about, solely because the fandom was so entertaining? I've done this a couple times. Mostly, it was X-Men: First Class. I don't really care about X-Men: First Class. I wasn't much of a fan of the previous ~~Wolverine~~ uh, I mean, X-Men movies, I preferred the comics, and FC itself was pretty eh as a movie. However, it was very easy for me to shovel popcorn into my mouth while clicking through the 80% of the fandom which can pretty much be summed up with this gif:

Not simply crack fic! Meth-fic! I could have just read Lewis Carroll if I wanted this sort of Heisenberg-grade purity, but whatever...

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Just the fandom-related part of all the junk I thought about while insomniacing last night

2015-04-18T00:24:03Z

-If I could only pick one fact that proves to me the stupidity of the human race, it's the fact that sales of clownfish spiked after the release of Finding Nemo. Basic comprehension, kids and parents. You fail.

-There is nothing quite like reading someone else's interpretation of a modest show or book or movie in a way that sends shivers up your spine, because the spine-shiver effect is a an incredibly narrow line to balance on between various shades of eye-rolling. Incredibly rare.

-Writing fic comes about 5x easier and faster after I've had a glass of wine. This is a bad trend on every level, I can't afford wine anyway, and technically this is against my religion.

-The best fandom-related invention of the past 5 years is without a doubt Texts from Last Night parodies.

-Captain Picard's bald head dome makes me jealous. For the record, I am a girl with massive quantities of long hair that is so thick I can't braid it.

-I am having nostalgic flashbacks to that time I was obsessed with uber-pretentious sex scenes in fanfic. Not because I bought into the pretentiousness, just because they were so much hotter than non-pretentious sex scenes. This ability to stomach sex-pretentiousness came to a screeching and possibly permanent halt after being introduced to the fic of a certain Sherlock Holmes explicit slash writer who shall remain anonymous. It was a bit like weaning oneself off cigarettes by unrolling several packs' worth of them, sprinkling the contents with chalk dust from the classroom of the most insufferable English professor you have ever had, and eating this mixture until you puke uncontrollably.

-Out of all the large fandoms I've been in, I think Star Wars has the highest ratio of good fic to crap or mediocre fic. At least for the OT -- never read much prequel fic so I can't speak for that.

-Is there anything more gratifying and satisfying than reading the amazing fic of an amazing author? Why yes, reading the amazing author's earlier fic and realizing it is promising but nothing near as good as their later stuff. Incredibly motivating, I tell you.

-Reading wankfests is 1000x better when imagined in Humphrey Bogart's voice.

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Advertising Two Fic Challenges!

2015-04-06T02:17:41Z

First:

The Not Ready for Prime Time (Fandoms) (info can be found at npt_admin , not_primetime , and bridgetmkennitt 's post here.) Basically, yuletide for medium-sized fandoms instead of tiny ones.

Nominations started April 5th, and the nominations form is here. The list of nominated fandoms is here. Apparently, anyone can nominate, although they do encourage people who nominate to sign up to participate too.

Second:

Join us at wipbigbang Sign up April 3 - 17, 2015 and Finish Your Sh**! This is a Big Bang with one goal in mind: to clean out your drafts folder. These are stories that were unfinished for whatever reason, that authors returned to and completed, and the art that goes with them! All fandoms welcome!

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RIP Leonard Nimoy

2015-02-28T00:42:11Z

Although I was not a first-generation fan, Star Trek TOS was my first fandom (along with M*A*S*H and Harry Potter), and probably out of all my fandoms, the one that is most consistently near the front burner.

And so much of the appeal and timelessness of TOS was the characters and the ideas they embodied. Spock was a one-of-a-kind, unforgettable performance by Mr. Nimoy, alien-ness unsurpassed by any other Star Trek actor, in my opinion. Out of every single actor who I have seen play an alien character, Spock stands out, because of Nimoy.

It was the little things -- the way he moved, the way he held himself, the way he talked, the way he paid attention to the tiniest little details to imbue them with consistency, to make them Vulcan, so clearly and firmly committed to making every gesture and word authentic to the core, no slips into who's-going-to-know-the-difference laziness about keeping up the illusion of alien-ness -- no "normal", human-esque behavior, no moments where he broke character while in the background, or because the temptation to take the easy route and react the way humans would for dramatic effect was too great.

This happens so often with other actors playing aliens -- even the really, really, really good ones. There's always those moments, little moments, when their mask crumbles and that regular ol' 20th-21st century human actor peeps through. Often so small you don't notice it until you compare it to the sheer airtight-ness Mr. Nimoy brought to his illusion. It was a case of perfect plausible deniability -- there were none of those moments (after the Pilots, of course), that I can recall, where I could point to as a "tell," a moment of "oh, look, he's not an alien after all." Even his most human moments, like the single moment of absolute joy at the end of "Amok Time", the human-ness is still Spock's particular, unmistakable brand of humanity -- the character's humanity.

The performance of Vulcan-ness -- or Spock-ness, rather, for Spock's humanity was crucial to the character -- was absolute, and that made all the difference. I could believe with 100% unshaken suspension, in spite of cardboard sets, ridiculous special effects, garish makeup, and general '60s hilarity, that Spock was really a half-Vulcan scientist from the 23rd century. It sounds like a modest accomplishment, but when I try to think of any actor who played an alien the way he did? It's rare, so rare, so memorable, and so unique.

Sorry for the rambling entry, but I'm sure some of you know what I mean. I know I'll definitely be rewatching some of his best episodes tonight, and over the weekend. RIP.

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Maybe his head would explode?

2015-02-17T05:00:26Z

I remember when I was younger I used to always laugh at the bits in Sherlock Holmes stories where Holmes would deduce some person's belongings successfully because all the belongings made sense together. I'm sure he could have made lots of deductions about people's bookshelves. I don't know about mine though. Here are all the books just on my bedroom bookshelf, in the order they're sitting in at the moment, from left to right and up to down (which doesn't include all the books of mine in the apartment). What would Holmes deduce about me?:

Scientific Progress Goes "Boink" (Calvin and Hobbes collection) by Bill Watterson

Pogo by Walt Kelly (no title, copyright page says these strips are from 1949-1951)

Transmission of Light by Zen Master Keizan

The Best Illustrated Cocktail Recipes

Don Quixote Volume I by Miguel de Cervantes

Don Quixote Volume II by Miguel de Cervantes

The Velveteen Rabbit by Margery Williams

Zebra Three #1 (Starsky & Hutch fanzine)

Zebra Three #3 (Starsky & Hutch fanzine)

Batman: The Killing Joke by Alan Moore

Avengers: The Kree/Skrull War

Five Great Short Stories by Anton Chekov

The Return of Sherlock Holmes by Arthur Conan Doyle

Crisis on Infinite Earths (DC Comics)

"Is This Your First Purge, Miss?" (Doonesbury collection) by Garry Trudeau

The Long Goodbye by Raymond Chandler

Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain

Helen's Babies by John Habberton

The Chocolate Lover's Cookbook (why the fuck isn't this in the kitchen...)

Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoenix by J .K. Rowling

GRE Premier 2015 with 6 Practice Tests

The Complete Works of Beatrix Potter

The Adventures of Jimmy Skunk by Thornton W. Burgess

The Adventures of Grandfather Frog by Thornton W. Burgess

IDK?

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Three Lines from Three WIPs Meme

2015-01-24T18:13:58Z

So, like several people on my flist, I'm jumping on the "when you see this, post 3 lines from 3 WIPs" bandwagon. This has the added benefit of motivating me to finish them faster, because I don't want to go around for months with those lines out in the open without posting the fic that goes with it. And of course, not exactly random selections, but lines that hopefully make a bit of sense in context.

1. The West Wing, prequel fic, Jed and Leo-centric

He made a stab at pulling himself to his feet on a nearby shopping cart before Jed's voice got any louder, but forgot to take the cart's wheels into account. He found himself deposited back on his stomach as the cart rolled out from under him with a half-hearted clatter, rolled a few parking spaces away, and came to a squeaky halt.

"Jesus Christ," growled Jed. He walked back, grabbed the back of Leo's belt, hauled him up like a duffel bag and propped him diagonally against the base of the streetlight. "I said just sit still. You got that through your fucking head?"

"Sorry," Leo sat still, feeling bad and then progressively worse about letting Jed down. He desperately wanted to ask Jed to get him a drink so he could stop feeling bad about it, which made him start laughing.

2. Starsky & Hutch, long decades-spanning snapshot series

"You kiddin'?" Starsky's eyes were dancing, and either didn't know or didn't care that Hutch could see it in the mirror's reflection. "Listen, Blintz, you better get all your romancin' in now, because if you're seen around with me after I'm back in shape, there ain't a woman with a lick of taste who's gonna take a second look at your ugly mug. On the beach, next summer? Who's gonna go for some balding chump with a mustache like that over a gorgeous guy who's clearly the biggest badass in California, and got the scars to prove it? Chicks can't resist the sight of 'em."

"Right," said Hutch, appraising Starsky's reflection with one raised eyebrow over the top of his newspaper, "I forgot that it's every woman's dream to sleep with a guy with only one nipple."

"Hey, that's one and a half nipples," muttered Starsky, frowning mournfully at his chest. "The doc said I'm gonna be able to see most of this one again once all the stitches come out."

3. Harry Potter, several decades post-epilogue

But at the end of the high table, Potter had his glasses tilted so that only one eye was covered, and was holding a piece of treacle tart aloft in one wizened hand. He was closing first one eye, then the other, as though he was taking turns between gazing at it like he'd never seen food before, and letting it go blurry.

"Well, they wouldn't let him teach if he was a complete nutter, would they?" said Neil, "My granddad was in the war, there's some times where he starts talking about stuff and can't stop, but he knows he's doing it."

Sean shook his head. "Nah, not like that. I don't mean he loses his grip or anything, it's just...well," Sean jabbed his fork in Potter's direction. "He always acts like he's just taken a swig of Felix Felices."

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I Bet Spider-Man Made That Woman Cry!

2015-01-04T06:12:37Z

As usual for the past month or so, I only had the time to pop onto Fandom!Secrets for a couple minutes this evening, and I've been avoiding the GC thread because I know I will get stuck there forever when I don't have time. But a couple minutes was long enough to remind me of two fannish memories that make me very happy:

1. Krazy Kat is a thing that exists. If you have never read or heard of the comic strip Krazy Kat, it was a newspaper strip by George Herriman that ran from 1913 to 1944. It is about a cat, who is sometimes a male and sometimes a female, and has made meta jokes about this gender confusion, who is madly in love with a male mouse named Ignatz, who despises Krazy and conspires to throw a brick at her/his head in frustration for being hit on, in irritation because Krazy is sort of a dimwit, or just for the lulz. Sometimes, a policeman bulldog named Offissa Pupp will then chuck Ignatz in jail for said brick-throwing, while Krazy invariably thinks that the brick-throwing means Ignatz loves her/him back and cannot be convinced otherwise because of perfectly elegant and simple communication-fail of the most absolute kind: in Krazy's reality, every brick Ignatz throws is a declaration of his love, so Krazy pursues him more, and Ignatz throws more bricks at her/him, ad infinitum. Some variation or portion of this sequence of events happens or is referenced in every single strip. If you're wondering how a newspaper strip can survive for 31 years on that gag, let alone be named the greatest comic strip in history, all I can say is you have to read it. But remember the Wile E. Coyote and the Roadrunner cartoons where the entire plot of every cartoon was Wile E trying to kill or catch the Roadrunner and getting horribly injured by Acme products? Like that but about 500 times more complex on all levels -- visual, artistic, cultural, linguistic, structural, philosophical, logical, social, characterization-wise, etc. This is a good, though not definitive or complete, analysis.

Also, Ignatz does return Krazy's feelings, though he'd never ever say so. Just look:

2. Every time I re-read "I Don't Need Your Civil War" I start to wonder if, maybe, Marvel's Civil War just might be justified in existing because without it, "I Don't Need Your Civil War" would not exist. If you ever asked me to try to explain what that ineffable, glorious thing is that makes the Marvel comicsverse have such a distinct flavor that I cannot fall out of love with, ever, I would probably flail around vaguely about J Jonah Jameson, New York City, the epic Rube Goldberg-esque, Big Bang-esque explosion of a fictional universe that takes place between the 2nd and 7th years of Stan Lee's run on the Fantastic Four, and then try to show you "I Don't Need Your Civil War." I mean, just reading all the thumbnails in order is hilarious enough in itself.

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Fandom 2014 Year in Review Meme + 2015 Resolutions

2015-01-01T15:46:12Z

I literally spent several straight hours last night out dancing, and then danced some more with my dad after crashing at my parents' in anticipation for our big family dinner today, because of all the jazz being played on NPR on the drive home. Remind me to look more into Cab Calloway. As a consequence, I was out like a light when I got into bed and slept better than I have all month. Hopefully this will be good motivation to be more busy and active. It makes me a lot happier. Anyway, my belated 2014 fandom reflection courtesy of selenak :

Your main fandom of the year? I haven't had any new ones, but I have been indulging very deep in three old ones: Star Trek TOS, Starsky & Hutch, and Star Wars (mostly original trilogy).

Your favorite film watched this year? Newly released? Guardians of the Galaxy by default (because I only watched three new movies this year). Old but new-to-me? Double Indemnity. Love it so much. Would've tempted me to go on a noir kick if I had the time :)

Your favorite book read this year? Don Quixote volume I. Basically dying of laughter on every page, which I did not expect because you know, old wordy translated tome of satire that was topical in 1605. I only bought the books because they were ancient (undated, but god knows how old given the physical state they're in) copies of an 1847 translation and I cannot resist stuff like that, and I only started reading it so I could truthfully tell people that I read part of it. I didn't expect them to be actually hilarious to me.

Your favorite album or song to listen to this year?: There are only three newly released songs I even know the names of off the top of my head: The River by Son Little, Yellow Flicker Beat by Lorde, and All About That Bass by Meghan Trainor. IDK.

Your favorite TV show of the year? Haven't been watching any new TV, but I did rewatch a lot of Star Trek TNG in order during the summer when I was staying with my family after graduating, and I swear it just gets better every time (and more ridiculous, but I can't begin to articulate how little I care about that.)

Your best new fandom discovery of the year? I wouldn't say I discovered fanlore.org this year, because I've known about it since 2011 or 2012, but I only recently discovered what an amazing resource it is for information about old fandoms. Hence my in-depth revisiting of the three 2014 fandoms listed above ;)

Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year? I...can't think of many. Perhaps, simply a dark aspect of my best new fandom discovery: getting a nasty kick in the teeth on the subject of just how nasty the character-bashing fights in Star Wars fandom in the early 1980s, before and after Return of the Jedi was released were. I mean, I knew it by hearsay, but never read through the kind of ugliness it consisted of.

Your biggest squee moment of the year? In September, buying a fanfiction zine that was first published in 1977 on ebay. I don't recall ever being that excited and squeeful - heart pounding, unable to sit still - about anything fandom-related since I was 16 or 17. Have you ever planned out a day carefully to be perfect in order to enjoy something you were anticipating? It was like that for me. I ordered it so that it would arrive when I had a half-day at work, made sure to have the afternoon and evening free, and then in order to savor it all alone in perfect solitude, I parked in a quiet spot and spent about half an hour just looking at the little details of it, the crumbling yellow pages and peeling faded ink, before even reading the stories. Because I am a dork.

The most missed of your old fandoms? This is going waaaay back, but I've been recently thinking about M*A*S*H a lot. M*A*S*H was one of my very first online fandoms ever, and the first one where I regularly participated in a discussion and interaction-heavy way, rather than only reading other people's fanfic. I was 14-15 years old (wow, 8-9 years ago, really?) and I participated and discussed and fanned on the bestcareanywhere.net forums. We had an amazing tight knit lively little community there, and I lied my ass off about my age (I think I said I was 20) and we talked about everything, absolutely everything, there were episode discussions, character discussions, fanfic reviews, general topics, off-topic/personal, and people would bring up and post new topics and activities almost every day. There was a completely insane guy (or probably a troll, but I was 14 and didn't get it yet) named John Cooper II aka Radar's Election Campaign Manager who wrote all characters' names in ALL CAPS and wrote the most befuddling posts and fic (google it and you might find some stuff about it) that we all mocked to death. I think forum style was probably even then (2006) getting outdated by LJ, and it saddens me that it has mostly gone by the wayside.

The fandom you haven't tried yet, but want to? Specifically, I think The Americans. I've heard so much good stuff about it. More broadly, next year's Yuletide. I've been eavesdropping on my flist and other members of my communities' participation in it closely, and scooping up recs by the handful. But I am commitment-phobic and also too fucking lazy to ever learn the rules for exchanges and fests, so I've never actually done anything in it. Next year!

My Vaguely Fandom-related Resolutions

Daily
Write for either at least 40 minutes or at least 500 words, depending on the nature of the writing

Weekly
Make at least one DW post
Comment in more than one of my flist/circle's journal posts
Edit/revise a discrete section of something I've written so that the section works as a readable excerpt

Monthly
At least one new-to-me movie watched
Either one short fic posted or 3 chapters (or the equivalent length) of a long fic written

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